i blame u for my bad teeth condition

it's very rare and hard for me to openly say out loud to blame somebody for whatever things that ever happened to me, in fact it has never occurred to me that i need to blame anybody for bad things that happened to me.. but because of today's incident, i'm firmed with my decision that i blame the dentist that treated me 19 years ago for my bad teeth condition now..

well, my gumis  swollen like hell, so i decided to see a dentist this morning..i reached the clinic at around 8.15 am, i went inside, there's no one at the registration desk..then a nurse saw me and she said sorry for waiting, she'll entertain me a.s.a.p...then at 8.30 am, registration was done and i was given a number for my turn..it seemed that i'm the first patient if the day..tick tock tick tock, the clock was ticking, 5 minutes, 10 minutes, 15 minutes, still, the doctor didn't call on me yet..20 minutes, 25 minutes, then i heard a little boy who's waiting for his brother's with their mom said this out loud to his mom "Mama, awat lambat sgt doctor ni??" i turned and smiled at his mother, as a sign to show that i agreed with his son..

later at 9.05 am, the doctor called me..she looked at me and asked what went wrong while asking me to sit on the-chair-where-u-can-only-find-in-the-dentist-office..she did the usual dentist's task, checking my mouth and teeth and give some kind of instructions to the nurses in the dentist language, i assume, because even though it's in English, it doesnt make any sense to me..the nurse wrote it down and that's when the dentist started to scold me..she said that my tooth is in a very bad condition, need to pull it out but it will be very hard to do so because of the condition, and in fact there's another 3 tooth that need to be pulled out as well and why i had not done it yet, i told her that since the other 3 are not causing me pain, my dad refused to let me had them pulled because he wants me to do crowning, bridging or root canal treatment, which ever necessary, to replace the decayed tooth..

then, she got more furious, she asked about my dad occupation, where does he work, which department, position etc and she smirked, WTH?..adding salt to injury, she told me to tell my dad that my teeth is already very bad, the only solution is by pulling it out, i can't undergo any of that treatment, he could try to consult other doctor, but even an expert would tell the same thing...in my pain, i just nodded and asked for MC, took my medicine and headed out..i did hear the dentist told me, plz tell your dad if he wants u to go for the treatment, he should do it faster and bla bla bla, i didn't remember what else did she nagged about...

next, i called my dad telling him about the check ups and said i'm fine, and i swear i almost cry because of the pain, but i cannot because i know my dad would definitely come here to see me, thus i cannot do that, so i held my tears and got on the bike with my cousin, Syahirah, and headed to my aunty's house, the place where i stay, at the moment..

at the house, i recalled on my childhood memories why i grow up to hate to go to the dentist..it was because i met a terrible dentist when i was 8..i was put on an appointment at the school's clinic to do a filling, i was excited at first, but the dentist was terrible and it ended up with a very bad experience for me, and from that day, i always avoid to see a dentist...because i think all dentist are alike, pardon me, i was only 8 at that time ok..and end up with such a bad teeth condition, padan muka sendiri..

now, with the incident that happened to me this morning, to all dentist, i must say, we are not dentist, there are certain things that we do not know, so when we go to the clinic and see u, plz do not scold us as if we are dentist too..we go with pain and hope that u could cure us, not to hear u nag and be scolded..

sekian, terima kasih.

p/s: my tooth is still painful and my gum is still swollen..half of my face looks like ikan buntal dh..