a sudden stochasticity thought

everyone loves money..especially in a huge amount...it's undoubtedly true, right? why we love money so much? because we can use it to buy everything we need as well as everything we want..we are able to help the poor and make the people that we love happy by giving them things that they like..we are able to go wherever we want in this world..we are able to make other people's life much better..the list can go on if we are talking about the benefits of having a lot of money...and it seems that money is really important in making world a better place, isn't it?

some says, money can buy everything..how far does this statement apply in your life? for me, money cannot buy everything..yes, maybe it can give us every single material things that we dream of having in our life but the peace in your heart and mind, are not sold anywhere...the feeling of grateful, humanity, compassion, just to name a few, cannot be bought with money..maybe those things does not seem important to certain people, but, i believe those feelings are far greater than what money can buy..

it irks me when some people respect other people just because they are filthy rich, driving a luxury car, living in a super big houses and all the things that shows the huge amount of money involved...it's not wrong in wanting that kind of life, but to respect? plz..we respect people because of their personality, the moral values that they have in them which can inspire us all in becoming a better human being...i know, some people have different view about this thing, so, im really sorry if my perspective contradicted with yours..

it's the end of the world...people are striving hard in becoming successful and rich just to gain some special place in the community..values are marginalized..people would do anything just to earn the extra money that they can get..but trust me, the more u get, the more u feel that it's not enough because u will always refer to people whom are richer and more successful than u..and the battle will never end..there will always be someone who is better than u...what we can do is just being grateful in what we have, pursuing what we love and do what God asks us to do, and without money, life can be at peace...like how i feel right now ;-) jobless, broke, but still, im happy..why?? because im surrounded by people that i love and whom love me as who i am now..and money can't buy love...

thanks for reading this crap.hee.

“It's good to have money and the things that money can buy, but it's good, too, to check up once in a while and make sure that you haven't lost the things that money can't buy.”  

 -George Lorimer

what is your ideal ring?

have u watched The Twilight Saga: Eclipse? well, if u had, i bet u've seen the ring that Edward gave to Bella as their wedding token..after the released of the movie, i've seen many people are drooling over the ring, want to have the exact same ring as their wedding token..

as for me, i think the ring seems quite gorgeous, and kinda symbolize luxury..but, i do not want that to be my wedding ring..it's too big and sort of, too show off..hey, no offense, i'm a big fan of twilight, fyi..i read all the four books for almost 3 times..this is just my opinion..hee

i like a wedding ring to be simple but classic..i don't like the-more-than-one-stone on a ring...seriously..one is just perfect..because i only want to get married once and to the only one that i love...so, the one stone on it, should symbolize the same thing, right..hee..maybe i'm the only one who think like this, but, i can't help it..i see it like that..everyone has different view over certain things..thus, mine lies on this tiny little thing..

ok, plz don't get me wrong..it's not that i'll be getting married in any time soon..i'm making this new post is just because of the rave about the ring in the movie..just sharing some piece of mind..*peace*

posting fever

we might know the result of where we are going to be posted by today, or so i was told..but then, one of my friends checked with the ministry, and we were told that the result will be out on the 21st..so, being given two dates, i did check it today, but still, it stated that my name is still not the list..pheww..i'm kinda relieved actually..because i don't feel like working yet...i'm still having a good time at home, being pampered and all..hehe..

i really cannot imagine how am i going to be at school later..there's one thing that makes me kinda excited about my job is that i am going to be around kids..by kids, i mean, 12 years old and below..im glad i made that choice when i sign up for this profession..i don't think i'll be able to handle teenagers in the secondary school..i dun have enough patience to deal with them..but with kids, most people always say that kids really adore me..haha..i don't know whether it's really true or not, but from my experience, i kinda have a thing with kids..maybe because i really adore them so much..so, they might have developed the same feeling for me..heee..

i always come across some people whom ask me,"which school are u teaching, secondary or primary?" i would proudly answer, "primary school!" with a proud smile on my face..and then i can see a smirk on their face that they are thinking some sort of like: "ohh, kata ada degree, tp ajar sekolah rendah ja pn"...and as if i know what they are thinking, i would reply with, "mmg mintak primary school, kids are more challenging, plus, i receive the same paycheck with the high school teachers, with a bonus: i can go back home earlier"..then their face would change, like a total surprise, and say, "eh, yaka, gaji sama ka, igtkan gaji cikgu sekolah menengah lg banyak, untung la kan"...*a bit annoyed*..not that i'm mad, but i see them as ignorants, because they do not know that nowadays, even the primary school teachers must have a degree..so, let's just pity them...hehe

being a teacher is an exciting job..even though i didn't like the idea of it at first when my dad applied this course for me, but as years passed by, i kinda embrace the feeling of becoming one..i really love the idea of being able to help the young generations to spell and read..

oh gosh..look at the time..i've been bragging way too much about my job already until i haven't noticed the time..it's already passed my bedtime..so nighty night..sleep tight..

body conscious

i think i've gained few kilos during this holiday..dammit..i was planning to go for a jog at least 3 times a week..but it was meant to doom..i wake up at around 10a.m-12 p.m everyday...take a shower for almost an hour..then pray and take my brunch..switch on my laptop and broadband and stuck in front of the laptop for hours..the next time i look at the time, it's already 6 pm..i would rush to pray and sms Azry after that..he would call me and we'd talk for almost half an hour..the next time i see the time again, it's already 7 p.m..damn..it happens for almost everyday..sometimes, it rains heavily...another time i would hang out with my friends..and the main thing that we always do is finding a good place to eat and gossiping for hours..not that i blame them, because it's not like we go out every week..i blame myself for not sticking up to the plan..6 weeks passed and i didn't go for a jog for even once..urgh.

most people would say to me that im already thin and skinny *duhhh*..plz...u havent seen me naked...i do..so i know how i look like..and i hate it...i wouldn't dare to wear a bikini or a short *ok, a short is a lie*...it's because my lower part is so ugly..i have these giant thighs and huge calves which i have no idea how to get rid of the extra fat in it, and it  is so horrible...my arms seem kinda flabby already..i used to actively jog most of the evenings..some other time, i would go for squash..it's usually when i feel so stressed out over something and jogging alone is not enough..gosh, i miss UUM...

i know that some people would die just to have my body *ok, to die is a bit overrated, some other word, plz*..and i do not seem to be grateful about it..it's not that i'm not, it's because i know i can have a better shape than this..IF..i can be a bit hardworking in doing the exercises...alright, the IF has come out...i have a lot of IFs in my life right now, but unfortunately, it's useless because i chose how i end up today..so, let's just skip the IF's part..

all in all, this body conscious of mine is kinda getting worst from day to day lately..i don't know why..maybe because i just eat everything i want...and later regret it it when i get on a weighing scale..and maybe when i wear my skinny jeans then i can see the extra bulges around my hips and my thighs and my waist and my calves etc..i can never be satisfied with it unless i have a body that i want..but then again, when it happens, will i ever be satisfied? i don't think so..this is what we called human being..haih...

it's you im thinking about

insomnia

gosh. it's almot 2 a.m. and im not even sleepy..i have to wake up early tomorrow (means after Subuh prayer i cannot sleep)..

lately, my biological clock does not seem to function well...thanks to the World Cup..it's not that I spent every night watching all the matches...it's because i followed the update for some of the matches via fifa.com...
why i didnt watch it?? haa...it's because it makes me nervous watching it live..hahaha...the only match that i watched was the final, Spain vs Netherlands..

i never intended to really keep updating my blog from time to time..i created it just to fill my time..whenever i feel like writing and publishing it, i will write it here...but if i don't feel like publishing it, i will just write in my diary..yes, i have a diary..for me, i do not think that it is lame to have one...it's like a recording of what had been going on with your life..from that, all the good memories remain..back to what i said earlier, being jobless at the moment makes me so active with blogging.. i even created a tumblr....that one is really just for fun...posting pictures and meaningful words..

i don't know what should i do to make me feel sleepy...i've tried everything i know, from reading a book to counting sheep (yes, i really did that), but nothing seems to work...reading a book is definitely a bad idea...for a book worm like me (i  really am a book worm, just not those academics type) reading a book will only going to brighten my eyes, wider...

maybe i should watch some lousy movie..because of the lousiness, i may become sleepy..that's it for now, people..good night and wish me luck..

a small note

i miss you~!

my wish list :-)

being jobless and broke, there are so many things that i wanna buy..this is the syndrome that i always face during my poor time..haha..but bear with me because at the moment i've been eyeing so many things that "i think, i really need" at the moment..so, let's check it out..

1. n97 mini

2. handbags

3. shoesssss

i think the list shall stop at 3 for the time being...just look at the picture can drive me crazy all day long..hehe..i may, one day, be able to afford the Coach handbags, but Mulberry, naah..i don't think so..maybe i'll just buy the inspired ones sold by lot of the online sellers..hehe..the same thing applies to the shoes..i can never afford to buy the Christian Louboutin's, Jimmy Choo's and Dior's Bradshaw heels, but there are plenty of its inspired version...heeee...