wedding

lately, there were a lot of people asking me this typical question: dh kawin ka blom? bila nk kawin? dh berpunya ka?

hadoiii..it's not that i don't appreciate all of u out there for being so caring about me, tp kalo tiap2 hari dok tnya soalan yg sama, penat jugak weh! but, what to do, that's basically some of the routines in my every working day for the past three weeks...answering those questions..haha

anyway, last 3 days, i went for a course for a new syllabus, KSSR for 2011..since i'm gonna teach year 1 next year, i was asked to go..i happily took the letter with a big grin on my face when i was told bout its venue, it's only 15 minutes from my house..oh yeah! 

going for a course = going back home

yeah, u r right, i was ecstatic! haha..dh la i'll be on leave for the whole week next week, starting next Sunday till the other Sunday, ohh, i feel like i'm on cloud nine!

anyway, i really enjoyed my time at the course..i met people, make new friends, and learn about a lot of things..all i can say is that, starting next year, the English class will be very enjoyable..i can't wait to teach..haha

back to my topic for today, my dad suddenly told me that he wanted me to get married a.s.a.p..what?? i was quite shocked with his statement, but i just keep quite thinking that maybe he's just simply say that since my mom was talking about someone's wedding..however (feel like i'm writing an essay in an exam, haha), it turns out that my dad is serious..gagaga..haa, baru nk gabra..adoi..

he said, he just wanted a small ceremony, only do things that we are obliged to do in Islam and a small feast..takda hantaran, takda bersanding, takda different day for the feast, pas akad nikah, mkn2 sket, dah...even baju pn takmau buat yang glamour2, sbb nnt shari ja nk pakai, what a waste..i'm glad to hear that because that's exactly what i want for my wedding..oh, i love you, dad..u really understand me..

 

i do not know what about other people, but for me, lesser is better..i do not want a wedding to be an indicator to show people of how much we can afford (yes, i'm poor if u wonder, but, i dont have any debt, itu yg penting)

wedding is a sacred ceremony, even in Islam it can be compared to building a mosque..so, i really do not want to spend on things which are not necessary and can burden my future husband and his family..i just want a small and simple wedding, surrounded only by my closest family and friends..so, sesapa yg tak dijemput nnt, plz jgn terasa..later when i do open house for Eid ul Fitr, for sure i'll invite all of u..do claim it from me later, k :-)

ceh, sembang mcm nk kawin esk ja kn..haha..takda la, just nk ckp, my dad soh kawen cpt2..dan i sgt pening dan agak sedih, smp hati dia tamau bela dh anak dia ni..huuu..haha..mmg rs cm nk lempang ja kan Ann ni, dh 24 tp dok wt mcm 14 lg nk soh abah bela pasuma, kn..mmg melampau..haha..dak2, sj ja ckp..ala, ampa ni, nk lwk sket pn takleh..hehehe..

neway, tgk la what will happen by the end of this year...ramai org nk masuk meminang ni, tp suma dh ditolak awal2, sebelum dtg umah lg, sbb i already have someone special, hehe, *blushing* :-)..bkn nk ckp i'm so hot smp ramai org tergila2, langsung dakkkk...tp besa la, org ckp saham cikgu ni tinggi, kes tu la..sbb i am a teacher, ramai la org nk wt menantu, hehe..and muka pn bleh la tahan jugak, kn *cough* *cough*..hahaha..sorry, a bit conceited there smp terbatuk2..haha..


i think sbb ramai sgt org dok tnya about me, dat's y la my dad wants me to get married a.s.a.p..ya la, my bf tu dh lama sgt org dok tgk dtg umah to take me out, send me home..so, tak manis la kn..ramai jugak yg dok ckp mcm2 kt my parents, tp disebabkan my parents are the coolest, they just ignore it, bak kata my dad, mulut org bkn bleh ttp, nnt letih, dia senyap la..hehe..whatever it is, i just pray that i'll get a good husband that can guide me to be a better person..amin..

that's all for my lengthy ramblings for today..till next time..thanks for reading..have a good day :-)

i blame u for my bad teeth condition

it's very rare and hard for me to openly say out loud to blame somebody for whatever things that ever happened to me, in fact it has never occurred to me that i need to blame anybody for bad things that happened to me.. but because of today's incident, i'm firmed with my decision that i blame the dentist that treated me 19 years ago for my bad teeth condition now..

well, my gumis  swollen like hell, so i decided to see a dentist this morning..i reached the clinic at around 8.15 am, i went inside, there's no one at the registration desk..then a nurse saw me and she said sorry for waiting, she'll entertain me a.s.a.p...then at 8.30 am, registration was done and i was given a number for my turn..it seemed that i'm the first patient if the day..tick tock tick tock, the clock was ticking, 5 minutes, 10 minutes, 15 minutes, still, the doctor didn't call on me yet..20 minutes, 25 minutes, then i heard a little boy who's waiting for his brother's with their mom said this out loud to his mom "Mama, awat lambat sgt doctor ni??" i turned and smiled at his mother, as a sign to show that i agreed with his son..

later at 9.05 am, the doctor called me..she looked at me and asked what went wrong while asking me to sit on the-chair-where-u-can-only-find-in-the-dentist-office..she did the usual dentist's task, checking my mouth and teeth and give some kind of instructions to the nurses in the dentist language, i assume, because even though it's in English, it doesnt make any sense to me..the nurse wrote it down and that's when the dentist started to scold me..she said that my tooth is in a very bad condition, need to pull it out but it will be very hard to do so because of the condition, and in fact there's another 3 tooth that need to be pulled out as well and why i had not done it yet, i told her that since the other 3 are not causing me pain, my dad refused to let me had them pulled because he wants me to do crowning, bridging or root canal treatment, which ever necessary, to replace the decayed tooth..

then, she got more furious, she asked about my dad occupation, where does he work, which department, position etc and she smirked, WTH?..adding salt to injury, she told me to tell my dad that my teeth is already very bad, the only solution is by pulling it out, i can't undergo any of that treatment, he could try to consult other doctor, but even an expert would tell the same thing...in my pain, i just nodded and asked for MC, took my medicine and headed out..i did hear the dentist told me, plz tell your dad if he wants u to go for the treatment, he should do it faster and bla bla bla, i didn't remember what else did she nagged about...

next, i called my dad telling him about the check ups and said i'm fine, and i swear i almost cry because of the pain, but i cannot because i know my dad would definitely come here to see me, thus i cannot do that, so i held my tears and got on the bike with my cousin, Syahirah, and headed to my aunty's house, the place where i stay, at the moment..

at the house, i recalled on my childhood memories why i grow up to hate to go to the dentist..it was because i met a terrible dentist when i was 8..i was put on an appointment at the school's clinic to do a filling, i was excited at first, but the dentist was terrible and it ended up with a very bad experience for me, and from that day, i always avoid to see a dentist...because i think all dentist are alike, pardon me, i was only 8 at that time ok..and end up with such a bad teeth condition, padan muka sendiri..

now, with the incident that happened to me this morning, to all dentist, i must say, we are not dentist, there are certain things that we do not know, so when we go to the clinic and see u, plz do not scold us as if we are dentist too..we go with pain and hope that u could cure us, not to hear u nag and be scolded..

sekian, terima kasih.

p/s: my tooth is still painful and my gum is still swollen..half of my face looks like ikan buntal dh..

im super duper happy!!

i have few things to be happy about...

first, it's about my dear uncle, his wife just gave birth to a baby boy on 10.10.2010 at 10 a.m...how cool is that? such a memorable date..hehe..when i got back from Langkawi last night, i went straightaway to my grandparents' house to visit my newly born cousin..

so adorable, right? anyway, last night me and his mom were looking for his name, and we have agreed to name him, Muhammad Harith Hilmi...so, Harith, welcome to the family! ^_^

this is his sister, my beloved cousin..

she's very close to me because my mom took care of her from the day she's born till she's almost 2 years because her mom was working back then..i watch her grew up and be her playmate..hehe..it's good to have little kids around to play with..

ok, secondly, i'm so damn happy because i received a package from Jenn, the writer of the blog Lipglosseater..ohhh..she is so kind to give me a Clairol Herbal Essences shampoo for FREE!! i read in her blog about her review of the shampoo, the one for dry hair..

here's the picture of it..i really love this shampoo, till they discontinued it and replaced with the new one with new packaging...i was so sad because the new one does not smell so divine as this one, i really love this shampoo because of its smell, seriously..

thus, when i stumbled upon Jenn's review about this shampoo (she bought it in Bangkok, they still sell it over there), i quickly asked her a favor to buy me a bottle of the shampoo (because she's planning to go there again)..she nicely replied my email saying that she would give me this shampoo FREE OF CHARGE!! she just asked for my address only..another super nice thing she did was posting it by using POSLAJU and gave me the 400ml one instead of the 160ml that she reviewed in her blog..can u imagine how frantic i am when i received the shampoo?? SUPER!!

to miss Jenn, many thanks for your kindness in giving me the shampoo, i really do not know how to repay you since i'm really broke right now, but, i think i'll post u some chocolate from Langkawi later..thanks a lot for making my day!!!

p/s: sorry, i used your picture without your consent, if u want me to remove it, i'll kindly do it

officially become a teacher

it's my 2nd day of working..so far, so good..i love my school..teachers are nice and helpful..so does the other staffs..thank you, Allah for this bless..

ohh yaa..i forgot to tell you that i already know my posting result..i was posted to Langkawi!! how cool is that, huh?? it's not JUST because i got Langkawi (work + vacation), but it's because 6 of my friends were also posted here..so, takda la lost and rs homesick sgt, kn sbb ada org yg knal..

tomorrow is the day

i got good news and bad news to share today..ok, good news, for those who do not know, posting result was out..and i got Kedah! ok, i'm not that excited actually because i just know the moment i call the KPM office in Putrajaya, that i'll get Kedah..haha..but the bad news is i still do not know which district i'll get, apatah lg sekolah mana..haish..

few days back, i got a letter from JPN Kedah..i thought in that letter, i'll be told which school i'll get but turned out, it's about the talk that we have to attend this Sunday (which is tomorrow) from 8am to 2pm..and at 2pm only they'll let us know which school i'll get...how cruel is that??? and then 2 days ago i got a call from JPN, she congratulated me and asked me whether i've gotten my letter and that's it!! haih...

so, all in all, i need to wait for 2pm tomorrow to come and get the result on which school i'll be posted..huhu..apa la, dh hujung thn br nk bg posting..UPSR pn dah abes...tp, takpa lah...dpt jugak kn..syukur2..hehe

right now i'm praying hard that hopefully i'll get a school nearby..if not, poor my mom, she'll be left alone at home when my dad goes to work..

if u're asking whether i'm nervous or not, hell yeah..i'm freaking nervous!!

*picture courtesy of google*

Is it so hard to be a good person?

i just don't get it why some people choose to be such a bad person..i think being a good person is more rewarding than being such an evil one..it wasn't easy to be bad, though some people claim that it's easy, but if we think it thoroughly, it really is not..

let's take a look at a very simple example...on one hand, there's a person works 8 hours a day and by the end of the month, s/he gets his salary..it makes him/her happy because he can spend it to make their family happy with the money s/he earns by working hard...on the other hand, there's a person who robs a bank for a living..if s/he does not get caught, then it's ok, but still to spend that money on your family, i'm sure s/he would feel very guilty deep inside her/his heart because it comes from a bad source...however, if s/he gets caught, that's when it stings..s/he does not only will be imprisoned, s/he also does not get a single cent from it..the family would suffer from embarrassment, they might losing the only breadwinner in the family as well...

her's a list of the basic of good and bad things:

good things:

pray, respect the elders, love the youngsters, study hard, work hard,  be kind and helpful

bad things: 

neglect the duty to God, being such an ass to the elders and youngsters, lazy, evil heart and hateful

some might say that neglect the duty to God is a very easy thing to do...to have a discipline to pray 5 times a day (for Muslims) is very hard to be done..but what they do not know is that, it's the source of peaceful in our heart..pray saves us from a lot of trouble in order to find peace..those who do not pray might try to find peace by taking drugs, drinking liquor, just to name a few which will always end badly..compare to just pray 5 times a day, u are rewarded with serenity of heart and a good way of life..well, u decide..

God has promised that a person who obey to his orders or command will surely be rewarded and hell is a sure for those whom disobey...we always thought that reward should always be in a solid form like money..but what we do not realize is that, a good health, a fully function body, the ability to eat, to walk, to talk and to do a lot more things without the help of others is already a reward from God..what if He takes back one of this ability, how's your life would be? be grateful before it's not too late..even a handicapped learn to be grateful, why can't a physically perfect human being like us cannot? 

me myself is full of flaws..i did a lot of things and most of them were things that i'm not really proud of..but Allah loves me so much that he sends people to guide me back to the right track, and those are my parents and my grandparents..what i'm trying to say that God has always shown his love towards His slaves..it can be in thousands of ways...sometimes we are aware of it, but sometimes we are not, and that's when people say that it's a blessing in disguise...

so, let's ponder on what have we done so far in our life,  repent on all our wrong doings, start doing good things and lead a better life..

May God bless us all, always..

yours truly, 

a human, with full or flaws.

Organic Soaps

do u still remember my previous post about buying a new face products for my oily combination acne prone skin? well, tak sampai sebulan pn aku pakai, dh tergedik2 nk try another new products..this time organic soaps plak..the one i'm using now bkn tak bgs, ok ja..in terms of keeping my face clean and keeping pimples at bay, it really works..tp my aim is to have a flawless skin, so SGT ssh la kn..with all the acne scars all over my face, cmna nk dpt flawless skin, btoi dak..even kalo takdak acne and pimples pn, still nmpk parut2 tu, buruk ok..huhu..neway, as i browsed through lowyat forum, i stumbled into this topic and this and also this...teruja weh tgk sabun2 tu with its benefits and all...plus, it's so cheap some more! remember i told u about how i was such a sucker and gullible when it comes to cheap products with great results..huhu..at first i was able to resist from buying..i just leave a msg for that topic saying something like such a good product, will try it after i finish my current product i'm using and wished the sellers all the best with her sales...but then, the seller PM me saying that this offer is for a limited time only, why dun i just give it a try with their samples first...there, dgn ayat tu sj, tros aku bli samples dia..hahaha..and these were what i ordered:

1. glycolic RM 2.50

2. licorice RM2.50

3. arbutin RM2.50

4. gluta w rose hip RM 3.00

5. cucumber & lemon RM 2.50

6. Gluta w/ papaya RM2.50

7. Placenta free

total: rm21.50 including poslaju. 

nah, at first nk try 3 samples ja, then seller ckp ada promotion buy 6 samples free 1 sample, aku pn apa lg, tmbh la lg 4..hehe..i bought 3 soaps for whitening (no.2,3 &6), for my sunburned arms, then 3 soaps for my face (no.1, 4 & 5) to lighten my scars and tighten pores and another 1 soap for moisturizing which is the free sample, placenta..i planned to use that one for my heels and elbows..

btw, i've tried the Cyleina soaps b4 but i didn't buy from this seller and they're very good..i'd tried the rice bran, black pearl, tomato and grapeseed..it does what it promises, but as i said earlier my aim is to have a flawless skin, so i keep on trying new products..haha..

back to the soaps that i'd bought, i've tried glycolic, arbutin, gluta w rose hip, and cucumber & lemon..among the four, i like arbutin and gluta w rose hip the most for my face..my face feels so clean but not drying..i love the way they make my face glows and radiants..i THINK my acne scars and marks have lessen a little bit, or not..but i did notice some improvement if it's not it..glycolic and cucumber & lemon did nothing to my face, but they work great for my body..love it!

so, for organic lovers, go check it out...they might do good for your skin too :-)

this is my Eid celebration :-)

at home with my family, heart them!

karaokeee! hehe..it was awesome! i almost broke my vocal chord, ahaha..

at farah's crib, we had the best homemade satay ever!

at cikpah's place (the one in white kaftan like dress)

at burn's hommie, candid! (the most right)

at nadia's house (the one standing)

pose in front of farah's crib (the most left)

thanks photographer for making us looked damn good in this picture, hehe

at yusra's house (the most left)

last but not least, Eid Mubarak from all of us..hehe..this was taken at Fareeza's house (the most left)...it's perfect because everyone was in it...before this, ada ja yg missing..

there were a lot of pictures taken, but, i don't wanna make you puke or having nightmare seeing all of our faces so much..all in all, it was a fantabulous celebration...Alhamdulillah...till next time, y'all!